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I will protect you. I will fight for you. I will heal your wounds. I will dry your tears. Or at least, I'd like to. I will try to comfort you. I will try to provide for you. I will try to keep you safe. But sometimes, I can't. I will never leave you. I will never give up on you. No matter what happens, I will always love you.

(found this on my computer from several months ago) Feeling Alone.   It’s easy when no one is around, It makes sense, It’s natural, even. Of course I’m unconnected, there isn’t anyone to connect with. It’s more difficult in a crowd. So much potential, Still no connection. But it’s hardest Feeling Alone When one-on-one with someone you trust. Someone who knows how you Feel. Someone who wants to help, but can’t You don’t want them to worry, To think it’s their fault. It’s not their fault. It’s not your fault. It’s just how you Feel.

How can you go about fixing yourself when all you can remember is brokenness? Remembering your happiness in theory doesn’t help you get it back. Perhaps different things bring you delight now. But how do you find them when failure is so crushing? When did you last feel free? The last time joy ballooned in your heart and made you feel weightless? Why is the memory not strong enough to influence reality?